Evan Rachel Wood x Esquire

Terry Richardson x Purple Magazine

In love with this shoot. 

I HAVE NOTHING TO WEAR

I literally say this everyday, i have nothing. However, recently due to lack of money and a slight concern for sustainability (mostly aided through my love for Westwood), i've started to take on a sort of buy less, choose well mantra, a la Vivienne. 

I recently forked out £40 on a new jumper and my justification for it was that i'd just been paid and it would last me. Plus it was a sale item, i wouldn't have paid £50. Also it was an impulse buy, i was on ASOS looking for xmas list ideas. I didn't put this on my list as i didn't want to wait for it, i had to have it. I literally was on and off the website in 10 mins and bought something, i saw SALE and was immedietly hooked

The immodesty theory suggests in simple terms, that clothes are a way of drawing attention to certain parts of the body. As i intend on only wearing my studded cross bra under this see-through jumper, i guess in some respects i'm drawing attention to myself and am certainly not purchasing modestly and practically.

I also have never heard of this brand before, but as the products were among brand i love such as Westwood and Cheap Monday and presumed it was a similar sort of brand.

In the spirit of buying less, i recently customised one of my old jackets by cutting off the sleeves and using it as a gilet over the top of a contrast shiny american apparel varsity jacket. I've had loads of compliments which is funny seeing as it took me all of 2 mins to change. I've also started wearing my shirts as skirt things over skinny jeans. The whole sustainable concept also taps onto the real vs ideal self. Ideally i would like to be a sustainable and ethically conscious person. I'm definelty starting to tap into my greener side even though i want every peice of clothing under the sun.

Westwood x Customised jacket.

My girlfriend got a £500 coat and all i got were these lousy socks...

On sunday i went to Liberty's and Vivienne Westwood with my gf as she wanted to get a winter coat. Long story short we ended up on Conduit St in Vivienne Westwood looking at coats. Whilst she was doing her thing i wondered round and found some really nice Westwood socks, i didn't even think twice about the price, i saw £20 and was happy paying that for the Westwood orb on my socks. If they weren't branded there is no way i would have got them, of course subconsciously/consciously i chose the ones with the most obvious branding. To put it bluntly, wearing Vivienne Westwood makes me feel better and i feel higher up in societal terms. If people asked me for my fav brands, i would say Westwood even though i own little of it. I would prefer to say Westwood even though i mostly shop vintage. It makes me seem more fashion conscious.

After i left it actually hit me that i paid £20 for socks, uhhh. I literally do not have that money to spare on a pair of socks. What was i thinking. They will look cute with my creepers though. slaassssh now i'm very poor and stressing about money. Do Westwood do returns? ha

This purchase has a lot to do with the theory of self and more specifically my public self and how others perceive me/how i would like them to perceive me. I definitely got them to flash the orb around. 

When i grow up, i want to be a power dyke...

This evening i'm going to the Soho House christmas party, hosted by Girl Action and MINT. If Girl Action didn't give it away, tonight lesbians are taking over! Women invited tend to be 'professionals' insinuating there will be a load of power dykes and women 30+

I normally hate paying entry into places but i paid £10 for my ticket, very unlike me. I did feel a little guilty but i was determined to go. Why you might ask? Yeh i find it weird that i'll be hanging with a bunch of women twice my age at a members only club.

This obviously has a lot to do with acceptance in a certain group of people and illustrating my self-concept. The fact it's Soho House gives me a glimpse into a sort of life i want. I always say that when i get my Shoreditch House membership i know i will have made it...

Equally the women here are openly gay, professional, successful, beautiful, everything i hope to be and so it's very aspirational in essence. In accordance with expectancy theory i'm choosing this night over others in anticipation of acceptance into this particular group (self-esteem). I feel like i may need to alter how i normally act when i go out as i'm surrounded my a new group of people and am unsure abou how they might percieve me. To put it simply, i'm used to getting wasted in east london, not drinking civilly at Soho House.

**Update** - So after last night, i was definetly right about toning my behaviour down and even spend £10 on a glass of wine to fit in. It was very tempting to not go across the road for £1.70 drinks at G-A-Y

IDEAL SELF - Power lesbians...

Freja Beha Erichsen

Ellen Degeneres & Portia De Rossi

Mary Portas & Melanie Rickey

Leisha Hailey, The L Word.


I once wrote a massive paper on sexuality and the consumption of media focusing on the escapism behind choice of music and tv. As with my decision to pay £10 to associate myself with a certain group, i'm choosing to escape from heteronormative ideals.
Likewise, watching The L Word also says something about me and who i am/wish to be. In essence, i've determined what i do and don't like in terms of my sexuality in order to represent who i am, i guess as a sort of self affirmation (self theory and validation).

CAN'T DECIDE

Today i realised that the H&M Versace collection goes on sale at 9am tomorrow. I want the mens varsity style jacket so bad. But not bad enough that i'm willing to fork out £79.99. I'm in two minds whether to buy it or not, the rational side of me sees that i'm buying into the whole concept, the cheaper brand extension. If i saw this jacket in a vintage shop, yes i would probably buy it but for £30 max. The emotional side of me sees VERSACE, JACKET, NICE COMBO, i need it to look cool. With the success of the Lanvin collaboration (i think it sold out pretty fast) i feel like there's a massive rush to get in on this Versace x H&M endeavour. I'll probably just settle for the tacky gold chain for £14.99, which i do love but if it wasn't Versace i wouldn't go near it...